AGING
AGING
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In the silence
the words ring in
my head
that i can't seem
to let go of
book of life
and red and white
the moment
of the truth
and the cost
this has made
and knowing
now my time
is limited
i was blessed
and now i am
cursed
for a belief
for a view of love
that
should never
be undone
like that
judgement
to us
to our souls
when I know
where I belong
and where I
will be going
yet now the
silence
deafens
in the heart
that aches
for someone
I can never
be or have
till my last
breath will
I fight that
point of view
of evil that
existed only
to destory
that which
it should never
have found
to begin with
I didnt even
know
now i sit here
and contemplate
as my feet tingle
in the scars that
no one can see
but only I can
feel
they did this
deception well
and i fought
with all i had
for what it is
worth
we all strive
to reach that
higher plane
and then we
all know once
there what is
and isn't
and where it
leaves us
with my hands
in the earth
my feet walk
with the staff
like it should
and yet the
rain washed away
that pain
and took with
it a life
that felt a deep
love
and because
of that love
my soul
fought
to live
and now
the cost of that
fight is extremely
high
all i want to know
now is it all
in vain
has it all been
for nothing
the cost I paid
to live
to save the world
was it really saved
or is it just now
slowly decaying
where that time
of knowing
will leave you
empty inside
I can't help but
love
its my nature
it is all I know
as a human
now
it is all I have
and its
wasted
will it fade
will the fire leave me
lonely and
silent
the blessing
of a curse
to be in the night
without my stars
waiting
no more fear
no more
much of anything
they did it well
they played there
parts and
i hope they got
what they wanted
in the scope of
things
sparks are gone
as is the voice
as is the love
as is my hart now
as i feel it coursing
through my veins
when it comes
i will go into that
quiet sleep
but until that moment
i will not regret
i will not regret
i did all i knew
for what its worth
this frosties froth
is all poofed away
and the rich flavor
going flat sitting
in the bottle
waiting to have its
taste treasured
and now its just
sitting on the shelf
gathering dust
yet its value
is like an anniversary
a treasure
that can't be measured
the difference
from aging beer
to aging rootbeer
one is meant to
be swallowed
in within a certain time
while the other
is to be sipped
in when the age is
just right
one leaves no affect
while the other
euphoria till its gone
so the after taste
is the flavor in the mouth
both are not meant
to last for eternity
what remains is
just a memory
of that moment
like everything else
we hold dear
change comes in
with time
we can either be
aging like wine
at an angle
or souring and
fading when upright
personally
i am crooked angled
so my age is still
as good as the first
taste
but next to me
i sit alone
the games people
play when they
open an aged wine
is just not a good
scene if they don't
know how to truly
enjoy it
savor it
let it swirl
let it twirl
let the aroma
fill the nose first
then the taste
slow and sipped
not rushed and gulped
there is no fun in that
you may get the high
first but you waste
the goodness of what
its meant to be
so now i sit
and wait
