OH! HEART!

OH HEART

S.JENSEN (C)2019

HEART I SAID WHAT

A GIFT IT HAS

BEEN

TO ENTER THIS

CIRCLE OF LOVERS

AND TO SEE

BEYOND ITSELF

TO REACH AND FEEL

WITHIN THIS BREAST

EVERY DROP

OF ME SPILLS

INFORMS THE EARTH

OH MOTHER

I NEED TO MERGE

MORE

FOR MY HEART

HAS FALLEN TO RUINS

ALL AROUND IS MASSIVE

MISUNDERSTANDINGS

AND SAYING ONE

THING

BUT DOING ANOTHER

SOME ARE JUST SPITEFULL

MAYBE I AM NOW

COLDER THAN I WAS

FOR LETTING THINGS

JUST BE

TRY TO HELP SOMEONE

SCREAMING FOR IT

YET THE DOOR

IS SO SHUT

AND I CAN’T OPEN IT

FROM THE INSIDE

SO I WAIT

AND WAIT

...

LETTING GO...TO

MY WORLD WHERE

THE ONE I LOVE

WILL COME BRING

ME TO HER

AND I WILL LEAVE

THIS ALL BEHIND

BEFORE

SOMETHING

EVENTUALLY EXPLODES

IN MY SLUMBER

LIKE VITAMIN WATER

NOURISHING

I CLING TO THAT

THOUGHT

FRIEND HAS THINGS

I CAN’T FIX

SOME ARE JUST

BROKEN

FINALLY BROUGHT

BACK HOME

BACK TO PEACE

I WISH

...SO SOME YOU

HAVE TO LET GO

BEFORE THEY

TOTALLY MELT

DOWN

AND EXPLODE

AND YOU JUST MIGHT

BE IN THE WRONG

PLACE AT

THE WRONG TIME

AND BE CAUGHT

IN THE MIDDLE

OF THE

AFTERMATH

YET I NEVER PUT MY HEART

AS OPEN AS IT IS

TO ANYONE ELSE

TO BE SO

UNGUARDED

IS JUST VULNERABLE

I HAVE TO ONE

AND ONE ALONE

AND THEY KNOW IT

ALL THE REST

NEVER KNOW AT ALL...

THERE ARE

MAYBE TOO MANY

LAYERS OF ARMOR

TO GO THROUGH

DOES THAT

MAKE ME

COLDER NOW

OR KNOWING

THAT SOME PATHS

HAVE A BAD OUTCOME

NO MATTER

WHAT

ONE EXPECTS MORE

YET EXPRESSES LESS

THEY ALL DO THIS

AND RANT TO RAVE

ABOUT MOOT POINTS

TO SATISFY

HOW THEY

ARE ABOUT TO

TREAT YOU

AND YOU ARE JUST

THERE...

THATS MY MISTAKE

I CARED

TOO MUCH

AND YET I AM DETACHED

FROM IT ALL

AND SO

MAYBE I DON’T

CARE ENOUGH

ANYMORE

THEIR CARELESSNESS

IS NOT SOMETHING

I WANT PLACED

ON MY GRAVE

DON’T HIDE THE HEART

REVEAL IT

I ACCEPT WHO AND WHAT

I AM

NO ONE ELSE

HAS TOO

WISH OTHERS LEARNED

THAT

HOWEVER

I DARKEN MY EYES

IN THIS HAZY FOG

OF SADNESS

ITS THERE FOR ANY

TO SEE IT

JUST LOOK IN MY EYES

TOO MUCH

OF IT

ALL THE TEARS

SHED NO LONGER

SEEKING

FOR IN THE GARDEN

WHERE LOVE IS

ITS THERE

FOREVER

BEYOND THE CONDITIONS

THAT I CAN

NOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT

WHEN DO

WE SAY SORRY

THIS IS TOO FAR

I AM HERE TO HELP

YET YOU JEAPORDIZE

MY LIFE TOO

THE HELP ENDS NOW

IT HAS TO

I HAVE TO BE COLDER

AND SHUT THAT

DOOR SOON

RATHER THAN

SUFFER THE

AFTERMATH

SIX FEET UNDER

I UNFORTUNATELY

SEE IT

...I CLING TO

OUTSIDE OF IT

FOR EGO IS THE FUEL

TO THE FURNACE

OF LOVE

AND MY SOUL

IS THAT SAID FURNACE

AND OH THE

COALS COME

TO TRY AND LIT

THE FIRE

BUT EMBERS

STILL BURN

AND GLOW

WITHIN THEIR DANCE

AMONG THE WALLS

FORMING

AND SHAPING

LIKE BENDING WOOD

WITH STEAM

THE BOAT IS FORMED

OF SWEET MELODIC SOUNDS

OH MUSIC

SO FILLS MY EARS

AND I AM DRUNK ON IT

ALONE

OUTSIDE LOOKING IN

ALWAYS

ETERNITY LOST

IN THE WAVES

OF WHERE I BELONG

AND CAN’T BE THERE

LONGING IN A DREAM

I AM BLESSED

AND CURSED

OH WASH THIS

SORROW AWAY

WINE DO THE DEED

FOR NOW...

SOMEWHERE BETWEEN

THESE LINES

MY HEART

AND THE WORD

“NEVER”

RESTS

LONGING FOR FIRE

TO BE LIT AGAIN

BUT NOT

BY COALS

BUT A FUEL

THAT WILL NEVER

GO OUT...

I AM HOPELESSLY

LOST

IN THE ONE I CAN’T HAVE

AND

WANTED SO BAD

IT IS FLOATING

OUT THERE

FAR AWAY

FROM ME NOW

AND I AM IN HERE

OH I AM

SO LOOKING

FOR THE RAINBOW

IN THE FORTUNE

COOKIE

I AM JUST TELLING

MYSELF

ITS NOT ME

THAT ITS NOT GONE

CAUSE IT NEVER WAS

THAT SOMEHOW

I BEEN

FOOLED

AND NOT

REALLY LOVED

BACK

BUT I SEE IT

WAS THERE

IT SO WAS THERE

SIGH

HOWEVER IN

THIS I SEE NOW

OH I WISH

WITH EVERYTHING

IN ME

THAT I AM SO

FOR ONCE

WRONG...

JUST ONCE

I SIT BETTER

TO DREAM

OF A LOVE

THAN TO

WASTE ON

LOVE THAT

NEVER WAS

OH HEART

WHAT HAVE YOU

SO GOTTEN

YOURSELF

INTO

THAT YOU

ARE BEING

CARELESS WITH

THOSE THAT

ARE DEADLY

TO YOU

POISON IN THEIR VEINS

RULE AND

WILL TAKE YOU

IN A BLINK

WITH THEM

AND NOT

GIVE A DAMN

FOR ALL THEY

SEE IS THERE HURT

...

WALK AWAY

NOW

LET IT GO

YOU WILL NEVER

HAVE THE ONE

YOUR HEART

DESIRES SO

YOU SHOULD

LET IT GO

THEY DID

BE FOREVER

LOCKED

OR BE ALONE

AND FREE

KNOWING FOR A TIME

YOU MEANT

EQUALLY

IN THEIR HEART

THE SAME

OH IN THOSE

EYES

THE SAME

WE SO ARE THE BLOODY

SAME

AND YET SO DIFFERENT

THIS HEART

STILL SCREAMS

OUT...

THE SCALES

COMES WEIGHING

IN... (NEVER)

TO ALWAYS

AND FOREVER...

MY OH! HEART!

YOUR THE ETERNAL

LIMBO ROSE

NOW!

THE NAIVE ONE

ON A LEASH...

IS THERE

ANY HOPE

TO WORKING

THROUGH THIS

AND FINALLY

BEING WHERE

I BELONG...

I DON’T KNOW

ANYMORE.