HEART of a ROSE
(This is about a time when I was hurting from the past of a lover that passed away)
Heart of a Rose
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In the Tranquil silence
I sit thinking of memories faded
Dreams lost goal of wishes piled like
a million drops of water in a well
Dark and Cold lonely in a sea
of Beauty long forgotten
Once upon a time long long ago
This Heart now black and blue wrinkled
with age broken and jaded in view
I had felt happiness
yet its always fleeting away
like a Thief stolen locked away
without a key to Love
to release the soul
that wishes to Soar among the stars
Always out of Reach
Always told Sorry
but your just not enough
you'll find someone else
someday that will treat you better
you will see...
onward I raised my kid alone
searching in places
where others hearts beated
but no not to mine
always the outsider
Sometimes this Heart
would try so eager
Once she even sent her
white lighted spirit to the darkness
to Touch another with her
magic there in the night
Like no other before and
it was returned for as always
for a little while but
in the pouring rain
on a phone
she was told the other
didn't believe the magic of love
anymore so she cried a river
that none could see
for it was raining
and it is raining
still in that memory
the same tears of a heart broken
of being let go
so she locked her heart away
and never looked back
never called again
Darkness fell soon after
ripping her from all
she had ever known
it was no longer safe and secure in
her own home her life
almost taken as well as her kids
by the miracle of God
she survived alive
the only one thing
of love she held on too
fought the man who had invaded
her world tearing it all away
never to be the same
alive but the light inside
struggled fighting fear
itself many times since
One day later
she allowed her heart
to try again to be
released it lasted for years
fine and strong all fear lost
Then the other heart
struggled inside with
other demons never
able to set their heart free
from the past feeling hopeless
that their was no tomorrow
despite the fact the purple
rose was still there
that heart later finally
got its wish
by putting the light out
never understanding
Why Love wasn't enough
to hold her heart near
It now never heals
the wounded scar ever present
This Time it took its toll...
The heart of this Rose
now feels it will never see
Happiness but in
moments of Friends
This boat she is in
the sea of loneliness apart
of her wants to try again
but she is now forever afraid
her Heart is a Curse
that she will always
be the one Loved
but Let Go
that isn't a time or place
on this planet among
the masses
that her white light can shine
It sits on a window still
flame is dim but its not going out
until God comes an
takes the breath of the flame out
It wonders what purpose
its all been for
It wonders why its a beacon lost
It wonders if it will ever hear
the heartbeat of Love again
or is it now left to only memories
that are fading in time
She walks alone eyes
full of sadness
hidden behind a wall of everyone else...
A Rose in the cold ground
under the snow
always left behind
never to shine
So now she sits
just existing and waiting
never seeking never hoping
Just Dreaming the days away
in and around the tears
that come pouring like Rain
in a shower for others
never to see how deep the
Pain goes forevermore.
