LIFE CHANGES

LIFE CHANGES FILTERING OUT THE MESSAGES IN MY HEAD TO THE MEMORIES WHEN THINGS WERE SIMPLE AND ALRIGHT OH THE CHANGES WITHIN AND WITHOUT LIKE THE SEASONS CHANGES ARE COMING LIKE WHEN I WAS WALKING DOWN TO MEET MY GROWN KID TO SPEND TIME WITH HER FOR A FEW HOURS AS I WAS WALKING DOWN THE HILL I STOPPED AND WATCHED TWO BROWN LEAVES FROM THE MAPLE TREE SLOWLY FLOATING DOWN TO THE GROUND WORLDS APART WITHIN THE SAME CITY TOOK AN HOUR TO GET THERE AND THEN COMING BACK LATER ITS LIKE THE DOORS OPEN AND THEN THEY CLOSE AND YOU HAVE LITTLE SAY SO IN THEM ANYMORE SO MANY THINGS ON MY MIND ONE WALKING ON AN EDGE TO A LEDGE THAT HAS NO ENDING THEN WHEN SPENDING TIME WITH A FRIEND ANOTHER CALLS AND TELLS ME SHE READ MY POSTS OF MY EX ALL OF THEM AWHILE BACK WHEN I VISITED HER AND LEFT MY ACCOUNT OPEN AT HER PLACE WHY WOULD SOMEONE DO SUCH A THING SHE HAD NO RIGHT NO RIGHT THE TRUST THERE IS GONE AND I AM DECIDING WHERE TO GO FROM THERE WHAT RIGHT DID SHE HAVE NONE THEN I GO TAKE A PIC AND IT SHEDS ANOTHER LIGHT ON THINGS THAT I CAN DO NOTHING ABOUT WE PICK OUR BATTLES WISELY AND SOMEDAYS IT JUST SEEMS TO OVERWHELM US LIKE ONE MINUTE YOU HAVE ALL THINGS GOOD AND OK AND THEN THE NEXT BAM GONE JUST GONE THE STRUGGLE CONTINUES ON AND ON SOMEDAYS MY DREAMS JUST MELT AWAY AND OTHERS I MAKE THEM BUILD THEM BACK UP WALKING FROM ONE MOMENT TO THE NEXT NOT KNOWING WHERE THERE IS ANOTHER FUTURE DIRECTION OH THE CHANGES ARE BLOWING IN THE WIND AND I CAN FEEL THEM AS I SIT AND LOOK OUT THE WINDOW AT THE EVER CHANGING GOLDS AND ORANGES AND GREENS TO BROWNS OF THE TREES SO STILL UP AGAINST THE BRIGHT BLUE SKY DRINKING MY TEA AND THINKING OUT INTO NOTHINGNESS IF ONLY THERE WAS A WAY TO HAVE SOMETHING GENTLE AND SWEET WALK IN AND TAKE ALL THIS MIXED UP HELL AWAY THAT SEEMS TO HAVE NO END AND NO BEGINNING THE WALKING AND WALKING ALIVE AND SEEING BEAUTY BUT IN SILENCE AND LONELINESS JUST DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT IN AND OUT OF THESE FOUR BLOODY WHITE WALLS TO KNOW WHO ONE IS IS HALF THE BATTLE BUT TO WALK IT IN ETERNITY ALONE JUST SEEMS SUCH A MELLOW WAY TO GO OH TO THE CHANGES IN THE WIND WHICH DIRECTION WILL THEY BLOW NEXT OR WILL THEY ALL BLOW AWAY LIKE THOSE TWO LEAVES LET THEM GO DOWN SO THAT SOMETHING NEW IN THE SPRING WILL COME BACK AROUND ITS JUST GONNA BE A ROUGH WINTER YET IT HAS ITS OWN BEAUTY!!! HERE IS TO LIFE'S CHANGES...