EMPATHY

sometimes its not the spot where the line is drawn but where we live it once it is drawn....

i wrote this one a few years ago but it so applies now if not more so now... so sharing it in its entire way it was written .... cause somethings still matter while others are very questionable but that is cause its just an unknown... for the moment... it is a sad day when you draw a line and whether you agree with that line drawn or not .... pushes a side to be made.. and being stuck in between the rocks of that lined wall is the worst place to be...

EMPATHY S.JENSEN © 2015 THE CHORDS OF LIFE WE TRAVEL THEM THE BEST WE CAN LIVING AND SURVIVING FOR WE ARE BORN KNOWING THAT ONE DAY WE WILL DIE ITS NOT THE END TO FEAR ITS NOT THE BEGINNING TO FEAR THE JOURNEY IN THE PATHS WE CHOOSE TO FOLLOW THAT WHICH WE KNOW THE DIFFERENCES FROM RIGHT AND WRONG FROM WHAT WE ARE RAISED TO KNOW WHETHER IT IS INSTINCT OR LEARNED MORALITY IS EITHER IN US OR NOT WE FIGHT OUR WHOLE LIVES FOR SOME PURPOSE TO LEAVE A MARK THAT OTHERS CAN LOOK TO BASED ON THE TALENTS WE WERE GIFTED WITH WE LIVE BY THOSE CODES EVEN WHEN OTHERS CONTINUE TO BREAK THEM FOR SELFISH REASONS THIS WORLD NOW DOES NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF JUSTICE ANYMORE YET I BELIEVE ITS NOT TOO LATE WE WALK A ROAD THAT IS SET BEFORE WE EVER BEGIN TO WALK IT SOMETIMES WE HAVE A WAY TO LEARN AND GROW IN THAT EACH DAY WE KNOW AND SEE OTHERS WE CARED FOR WE LOVED NOT STAY IN THIS WORLD ITS NOT ALWAYS AS SIMPLE AS A LIGHT GOING OUT AND THEN REPLACING IT SOMETIMES THERE IS NO REPLACEMENT JUST SADNESS AND SORROW FOR THE DECISIONS MADE OR WRITTEN OR HEARD WITHOUT KNOWING WHY SOMETIMES WE HAVE DONE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DESERVE THE OUTCOME BEFORE US WE ARE ALWAYS TRYING TO WORK AROUND THAT WHICH MAKES OUR LIVES HARDER THAN IT SHOULD BE WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING WRONG FOR SO LONG IT IS THE ROPE THEY PLACE THAT FINALLY DOES THEM IN WE ARE NOT THE ONES RESPONSIBLE THOUGH WE ARE THE ONES THAT KNOW ABOUT IT AND TEARS FALL AND FALL AND FALL LIKE RAIN FALLING THAT BRINGS THE SORROW THAT LASTS AS LONG AS OUR BREATHS ARE BREATHING THE AIR OF THIS WORLD EACH BEGINNING WE STRIVE TO TRY TO MAKE ALL THE SCREAMS ALL THE WORDS ALL THE SOUNDS GO AWAY WHEN WE CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY SOMEONE TAKES ANOTHER'S LIFE AWAY EVEN THERE OWN WE ARE NOT ABLE TO SEE THAT OR KNOW WHY THERE HAS TO BE A LINE DRAWN AT SOME POINT WHERE HUMANITY FINALLY LEARNS TO RESPECT HUMANITY LIFE IS PRECIOUS EACH AND EVER ONE FOR WHEN IT IS GONE IT IS GONE WE WALK AND WE SURVIVE YET WE ARE ALWAYS SUFFERING FOR WHAT OTHERS DO WHEN THEY DON'T HAVE TO THE SACRIFICE OF SPEAKING OUR MINDS BRINGS THOSE WITH EMOTIONS THAT ARE SO STRONGLY OPPOSED THAT THEY SEE FIT TO TAKE US OUT LOOK AT HISTORY AND YOU WILL SEE IT GREAT THINGS IN LIFE COULD BE DONE YET ALWAYS SOMEONE HAS TO SEE THAT THEY DISAGREE AND THEN THAT GREAT THING NEVER GETS THE CHANCE OR IT IS LOST IF ITS NOT SOMEONE ELSE THAT TAKES ANOTHER OUT THEN ITS THE WAY OF LIFE THE FACT WE ARE BORN TO DIE WE GET ONLY SO MANY GET OUT FREE CARDS SO MANY CLOSE CALLS BEFORE IT COMES TO COLLECT ON ALL OF THEM WHETHER ITS ONE LIFETIME WE REMEMBER OR CENTURIES OF LIFETIMES ALWAYS BEFORE THAT MOMENT WHEN THE DECISION IS MADE EVERYTHING IN EVERY SECOND IS FELT JUST LIKE WALKING YOU SEE LIFE ALL AROUND YOU FROM THE TINY TO THE LARGEST OUR EYES ARE ABLE TO VIEW WE FLOW IN AND OUT OF THE RHYTHMS OF THIS LIFE OUR CONSCIOUSNESS THAT EXISTS WHEN THE BLACKNESS COMES THERE IS NO MORE OF THIS LIFETIME THE CYCLE COMES TO CLAIM THE CHURNING SOUL LIFTS UP INTO THE SPIRIT WORLD FOR HOW LONG THAT IS WHAT THAT JOURNEY IN THAT LIFE PRESENTED WE GET TO WALK IT CLIMBING ALL THE WAY UP EACH TIME TIL THE LAST CALL IS MADE TO OUR FINAL DESTINATION SOME GET TO SEE THE EYES FROM BEING OLD WHERE AS SOME DO NOT THERE IS A TALLY OF EVERYTHING WE DO KEPT WRITTEN IN THE SCARS ON OUR SOULS DON'T FOOL YOURSELF INTO THINKING THAT IT IS NOT SO EVERY LITTLE THING IS KNOWN WE CAN'T HIDE FROM IT JUST LIKE THE OLD SAYING A LIE WILL MAKE YOUR NOSE GROW AND GROW AND GROW TILL THERE IS NOTHING BUT A WOLF TO EAT YOU UP NOT A SINGLE ONE OF US IS EXEMPT FROM THIS OUR SINS WERE CLEANED YET WE TACK ON SO MUCH MORE THAN IS NECESSARY SO KNOW WHEN THAT GATE IS OPENED AND YOU ARE TOLD YOU CAN GO THROUGH BUT ONCE THROUGH IT YOU REALIZE ITS NOT THE ONE YOU THOUGHT IT SHOULD BE LOOK BACK ON YOUR LIFE AND SEE WHY WE ALL HAVE THIS POINT TO FACE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN THAT THEN THERE IS NOWHERE THAT YOUR SOUL WILL END UP BUT IN THE BLACKNESS AND NO MORE CYCLE WILL COME NOW TO ME THAT IS THE ULTIMATE HARSH WAY TO VIEW THINGS IS IT NOT I MEAN I WOULD RATHER GO AND BE APART OF THE UNIVERSE IN ITS ENERGY GREAT EXPANSE OF OBLIVION THAN TO BE IN ABSOLUTE NOTHINGNESS TO THINK THAT BEING HERE HAS ANY MORE OR LESS IMPACT REALIZE IT DOES I AM NOT SAYING ANYTHING THAT HASN'T ALREADY BEEN SAID ITS JUST SOMETIMES WE AS HUMANITY FORGET THIS AND I CERTAINLY DON'T WANT TO REGRET THE FACT I FORGOT HOW IMPORTANT IT IS EACH HAS A RIGHT TO THERE BELIEF I AM NOT FORCING ANYTHING JUST STATING FACTS ALL KNOW THIS WE ALL QUESTION WHAT IS BEYOND WE ALL HAVE WE ALL DO THE WILL HAS A LOT TO DO WITH THE OUTCOME BEING STUCK TO A PLANE OF EXISTENCE BRINGS US BACK IN SOME FORM OR FASHION WE ALL HAVE A TIME AND A PLACE AND WE KNOW IT SO CALLED IMMORTALITY IS WRITTEN NOT BY THE DEEDS WE DO THE MONEY WE COLLECT THE PRICE WE PAY OR ANY OF WHAT WE WISH TO BE IT IS TRULY ONLY LEFT IN THE PAST IF YOU THINK ON IT THEY SAY THAT THOSE WHICH ARE GREAT ARE ALWAYS THOSE FOUND AFTERWARDS NEVER BEFORE FOR THAT IS HOW IMMORTALITY IS KEPT FOR THE MEMORY IS LIVING IN EACH AND EVERY STORY OF THAT LIFE THAT MADE THEM GREAT YOU DON'T ALWAYS HEAR THE THINGS THEY DID BEHIND CLOSED DOORS SOMETIMES YOU DO THAT MEANS IMMORTALITY CAN BRING INFAMOUS AS WELL AS FAMOUS BUT WE ARE NOT HERE TO VIEW THOSE SO CALLED REWARDS FEAR IS THE ENEMY OURSELVES CAN CREATE THIS MORE THAN WE KNOW WHAT IS THE WORD PEACE REALLY MEAN TO YOU TO ME ITS TO LIVE MY LIFE AND SHARE IT WITH ALL THOSE THAT WISH TO VIEW IT BE APART OF IT AND EXIST WITH NO HARM DONE ITS NOT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR YET IT SEEMS SO MUCH THE OPPOSITE THAT PEACE IS SO IMPOSSIBLE TO REACH BECAUSE HUMANITY ALWAYS SEEMS TO VIEW FEAR FIRST AND DESIRE SECOND WHEN THERE IS NO FEAR AND THERE IS NO DESIRE THERE IS NO EGO AND THEREFORE PEACE IS ACHIEVED YET EVEN IF THE INDIVIDUAL IS IN THAT PEACE THOSE AROUND THEM ALWAYS SEEM TO WANT A REASON TO UPSET THAT PEACE AND CREATE MORE EGO OR FORCE THE ISSUE SOME DO IT OUT OF MALICE SOME DO IT OUT OF JEALOUSY OR ENVY SOME JUST DO IT BECAUSE THEY FUCKING CAN AND GET A FUCKING THRILL OUT OF IT WHICH TO ME IS ULTIMATE MORTAL EVIL AND I MEAN MORTAL EVIL NOT IMMORTAL SUPERNATURAL EVIL THAT IS SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT FOR WE ARE THE ONES THAT WILL DESTROY OURSELVES IN THE END WE HAVE THE CHOICE THE FREE WILL YET WE ALWAYS SEEM TO LET THAT LITTLE THING CALLED ESCAPE TO CREEP IN AND SAY I CAN TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY WHEN REALLY ALL IT DOES IS MASK IT TIL IT CREATES THAT WHICH IT SO CRAVES SO TELL ME ARE YOU WILLING TO PUT YOUR SOUL UP ON A CHOPPING BLOCK I AM NOT ONE MOMENT WE CAN BE HERE AND ONE MOMENT WE ARE GONE THAT IS THE ONLY GUARANTEE WE HAVE ITS WHAT YOU DO WITH THAT MOMENT BETWEEN THAT COUNTS GIVE LIFE PRESERVE LIFE CONTINUE LIFE RESPECT LIFE THERE IS ONE IMPORTANT RULE TO LIVE BY ABOVE ALL ELSE ITS SIMPLE TREAT OTHERS AS YOU WOULD BE TREATED MISTAKES HAPPEN BUT WE LEARN FROM THEM OR WE DON'T EMOTIONS CAN HELP US OR HURT US THE TWO THAT DO THE MOST DAMAGE IS ANGER AND HATE THEY GO HAND IN HAND WITH FEAR WHEN ONES HEART IS FULL OF COMPASSION SACRIFICE IS A GIVEN WHEN ONES HEART IS IN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THERE IS NO ROOM FOR ANY OTHER EMOTION TO STAY VERY LONG TO DO ANY TRUE DAMAGE IT TAKES A LONG LONG TIME TO HAVE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IN ONES HEART AND KEEP IT THERE FOR HUMANITY SHOWS CONSTANTLY THE STRUGGLE IT HAS FOR THE DESIRE TO COME DESIRE OF MANY THINGS THAT ALWAYS DESTROY WHEN IN EXTREME FEAR IS THE UNKNOWN THAT DESTROYS FASTER THAN THE DESIRE BUT BOTH ARE WHAT MAKE UP OUR VERY FIRST BEGINNING WHY DO YOU THINK A BABY THAT COMES INTO THIS WORLD CRIES WHEN SPANKED SO IT WILL BREATH THAT FIRST BREATHE OF AIR CAUSE ITS BEEN IN FLUID AND DOESN'T KNOW BETTER IF THERE IS NOTHING TO MAKE IT CRY THEN IT DOESN'T LEARN ITS FIRST LESSON TO BREATHE WE TAKE THAT BREATH FOR GRANTED THE OLDER WE GET AS WELL AS WE SEEM TO FORGET WE ARE NOT EXPENDABLE AS IN FLESH AND BONE THAT THAT BREATH TAKES ONLY A FEW SECONDS TO BE GONE CHERISH IT SAVOR IT RELISH IT EXPLORE IT EXPAND IN IT EACH AND EVERY WAY POSSIBLE WITHOUT THREATENING IT BUT THRILL IT IF YOU NEED BE CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN NONE OF US DO SO LEAVE A MARK THAT SOMEONE WILL REMEMBER YOU BY LET IT BE A GOOD ONE THAT WILL OVER RULE ANY BAD ONES WE ALL HAVE AWARENESS OF OTHERS AROUND US NOT EVERYONE HAS THE SAME MOMENTS OR SAME MEMORIES SOME GOOD SOME BAD SOME MORE CHALLENGING THAN OTHERS YET WHEN SOMEONE COMES TO YOU AND SHARES THEIR MEMORY OF THEIR LIFE RESPECT IT WHETHER YOU BELIEVE IT OR NOT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER ITS SOMETHING SPECIAL WHEN A HEART CHOOSES TO OPEN ITSELF TO ANOTHER NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND EVEN IF THEY KNOW THE OUTCOME IS USUALLY NOT GONNA FAVOR THEM THEY STILL TRY TO SHOW THEM THAT LIFE IS IMPORTANT SOMETIMES WE SHARE OUR CHALLENGES OR TRAUMAS AND SUCH NOT TO SAY OH I HAD A HARD LIFE AND YOU DIDN'T CAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE OR HAVEN'T HAD ITS TO SAY LOOK THIS IS WHAT I FACED AND SURVIVED MAYBE NOT WITHOUT A SCAR BUT I SURVIVED AND OVERCAME IT AND FEEL BLESSED TO STILL BE ALIVE TO TELL THAT STORY NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND SO IF I NEVER GET TO DRAW ANOTHER DRAWING OR PAINTING OF ANYTHING SO IF I NEVER GET TO WRITE ANOTHER WORD TO A BOOK I SO WANTED TO SHARE OR WRITE A WORD OR PHRASE OR EXPERIENCE EVER AGAIN NOT SAYING I WON'T BUT JUST SAYING THIS IS ONE MOMENT AND THAT WOULD BE THE NEXT KNOW THAT I PERSONALLY FELT IT WAS WORTH WHILE FOR ALL I DID SHARE ALL I CHOSE TO LOVE INSTEAD OF NOT WAS AND IS AND WILL ALWAYS BE PRECIOUS TO THIS MEMORY WHETHER THERE IS ANYONE TO HEAR IT TO SEE IT TO FEEL IT OR TOUCH IT OR EVEN EMPATHIZE WITH IT WE ARE WHAT WE CHOSE TO BE KNOW I EXISTED FOR A REASON WE ALL DO BIG OR SMALL RICH OR POOR HAPPY OR NOT WITH HEALTH OR NOT EACH OF US HAS A BREATH TO BREATHE WHILE THE AIR HITS OUR LUNGS MAKE THE BLOODY BEST OF IT WORK HARD BUT ALSO PLAY ENJOY IT ALL DO WHAT YOU LOVE TO DO AND DO IT EVEN IF IT PISSES SOMEONE ELSE OFF TO THE BEST OF YOUR ABILITY WHETHER THEY SEE IT AS GOOD ENOUGH OR NOT BRILLIANT OR NOT ITS ALL IN THE PERSPECTIVES AND AS THEY SAY THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER AS MANY AS THERE IS OUT HERE IN THIS WORLD THERE IS ALWAYS GONNA BE SOMEONE TO LOVE AND SOMEONE TO DISLIKE ITS HOW YOU REACT THAT MAKES THE DIFFERENCE CAUSE ITS WHAT YOU LOVE TO DO AS LONG AS IT DOESN'T HARM ANOTHER THERE IS NO WRONG NO FEAR TO HAVE NO JUDGMENT TO MARK YOUR SOUL WITH A SCAR SOME SCARS OTHERS MAKE ON US NOT CAUSE WE ALLOW THEM TOO OR HAVE A CHOICE BUT BECAUSE WE HAVE TO KEEP THAT SCAR AS A REMINDER SOME CHOSE TO MARK THERE SKIN LIKE A TATTOO OR WHAT HAVE YOU AS A REMINDER SOME MAKE A HARSH CHOICE TO SUFFER ONE THING OVER ANOTHER DOESN'T MAKE IT WRONG HEAL YOUR SOUL MAKE THE MARKS YOU LEAVE COUNT TO BETTER YOUR CYCLE IN THE NEXT LIFE FOR WHEN THAT CYCLE IS DONE IT MAY BE THE LAST ONE YOU HAVE MAKE IT COUNT AS IF IT WAS EVEN IF IT ISN'T SUCCESS ISN'T ALWAYS FOUND IN THIS LIFETIME BUT IN THE HERE AFTER BELIEVE OR NOT ITS YOUR CHOICE ITS YOUR LIFE ITS YOUR PURPOSE ITS YOUR SCAR TO BARE AND IF THAT CYCLE COMES TO A END REALIZE ALL THE SCARS WILL WEIGH IN MAKE THEM WORTHY ONES AND NOT THE OPPOSITE THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY

(my old online name before it was destroyed so now I wrote books with it and can't publish it cause i am too poor to do so its just a name I chose when in the SCA group 24yrs ago and when computers were becoming out of the beginnings with the WWW. it was a handle I loved so much I made the chr a hero... well I just don't know anymore so I left it be and just try to be me so guess that includes that old online name when it matters... some things can be taken and destroyed and used for wrongness by unknown who ever's for they can but I remain me despite all the wrongs, lies, misinformation, and how now even my heart is so under lock and key.... it is what it is.. ) ASTRAYA @}—'--------- I CERTAINLY DO