1000 MILES AWAY
1000 MILES AWAY
S.JENSEN © 2017
LISTENING TO
THESE SOUNDS
OF NOISE
COMING FROM
MY COMPUTER
I HAVEN’T
LISTENED
TO THIS
IN FIVE YEARS
IRONY
THE PAIN OF THIS
MUSIC
HURT ME
THEN
CAUSE IT WAS
MY EX PARTNERS
FAVORITE MUSIC
AND I LOST
HER
TO THAT SAME
DARN THING
SHE TOOK HER
LIFE
WHILE ON THE PHONE
TO ME
OVER 1000 MILES AWAY
SOMETHING
THAT ACHES
IN THE LEFT HOLE
IT NEVER CHANGES
THAT
PRESSURE
OF IT ALL
SO OPPOSITE
OF HOW I AM
AND HAVE BEEN
I WAS ONCE
IN A DARK PLACE
AND I WORKED
THROUGH IT
BECAUSE
I LOVE LIFE
MORE THAN
ANYTHING
YET SO MANY
I KNOW TALK
TO ME
SAYING THEY
ARE TIRED
AND DON’T
WANT TO BE HERE
ANYMORE
AND FOR EACH
ONE I TRY
TO HELP THEM
AND LET
THAT BE
SOMETHING
THEY DON’T DO
YET I KNOW
AS I LOSE
AND WE ALL
LOSE
THOSE WE LOVE
DEARLY
TO THIS
THAT RULES
IN THEIR
MINDS
AND OVER POWERS
THEM
SENDS A CHILL
TO MY BONES
AS THE TEARS
FLOW
SO HELPLESS
SO LONELY
SO DARK
DO THEY GO
SHE TRIED TO
TAKE ME WITH HER
AND I WAS STRONGER
THEN LATER
SHE DID IT
AND WANTED
TO LEAVE ME
IN PAIN THAT
WILL NEVER GO
AWAY
AND IT WAS
THE SAME DAY
MY SISTER
DIED
AND THE SAME
TIMEFRAME
IT TAKES
A STRONG HEART
A STRONG MIND
A STRONG SPIRIT
TO OVERCOME
THIS
PAIN SHE LEFT
OK
I HAVE LISTENED
ENOUGH
I CAN’T
GO THERE
ANY MORE
SO MANY
HAVE FALLEN
IN THAT SAME
PATHWAY
SUICIDE IS NOT
A WAY OUT
NO MATTER
HOW BAD IT IS
ITS NOT A RELEASE
MAYBE ITS
JUST HOW
I TRULY BELIEVE
MY
DEPTH OF BEING
THAT PREVENTS
ME FROM
EVER
EVEN GOING THERE
I AM NOT PERFECT
AND I HAVE
SO WRITTEN
ON ALL THE
SORROW
AND ALL THE PAIN
AND HURT
IN MY LIFE
AND THE SHATTERED
FEEL OF
GLASS
FROM IT ALL
BUT I WOULD
AND HAVE NOT
EVER
WANTED TO END
IT ALL
I FIGHT IT
WITH EVERYTHING
IN MY BEING
BECAUSE
LOVE LIVES
IN ME
OH THE TEARS
STILL FALL
I TELL THEM
THAT I LISTEN TO
TO HANG IN THERE
AND TRY
HARD TO FIND
A MEANING
IN THIS WORLD
TO HOLD TO
THIS LIFE
YET I LOSE
MORE THAN
I HAVE SAVED
SOME
VERY
VERY
CLOSE
TO ME
THEIR SUFFERING
MAY END
BUT FOR US
LEFT BEHIND
OURS LIVES
AS LONG
AS WE LIVE
YOU GO
THROUGH
ALL THE EMOTIONS
I AM SORRY
BUT IF I DON’T
UNDERSTAND IT
I WILL NEVER
UNDERSTAND IT
I DIDNT THEN
AND I DON’T NOW
NO MATTER
HOW MUCH
I WRITE
THAT SEEMS
SO DARK AND SAD
AND LOST
IT WOULD NEVER
EVER MEAN
THE END
IN A WAY
THAT TAKES
MY OWN LIFE
NOT INTENTIONALLY
I AM ALWAYS
1000 MILES AWAY
AND
THAT PAINFUL
TRIGGER
LINGERS
AND HOLDS
ME
YET I SURVIVE
AND
I TRY SO
HARD
TO CONTINUE
TO OVERCOME
IF THERE
IS A DEMON
OUT THERE
THAT MAKES
PEOPLE
SUICIDAL
OR HOMICIDAL
OR BOTH
I WILL
NEVER UNDERSTAND
THE REASON
BEHIND IT
AND IF I COULD
TAKE IT OUT
OF EVERYONES LIFE
THAT IS ONE
I WOULD SO
TAKE AWAY
…
SITTING IN SILENCE
FOR
I AM
CRYING
AND CAN’T
STOP
OK I GO LIGHT
A CANDLE
FOR ALL THOSE
THAT
HAVE IN THE
PASSED DIED
IN THIS WAY
AND
TO HELP
ALL OF US LEFT
TO DEAL WITH
THE FOREVER AFTERMATH
SISTER
(THOUGH I STILL SAY SHE WAS MURDERED)
LOVER
( FOUGHT TO SAVE HER
FOR FIVE YEARS)
COUSIN
FRIENDS
CELEBRITIES
TOO MANY
IN THIS WORLD
TOO MANY!!!
ONLY WAY
TO MEND
A BROKEN HEART
IS TO FILL
IT WITH LOVE
LOVE OF SELF
LOVE OF OTHERS
LOVE
THAT IS SO HARD
FOR SO MANY
TO FEEL
I LEAVE
A ROSE
TO ALL OF THEM
@}--’------
MAY THOSE
THAT CONTINUE
TO STRUGGLE
WITH IT
HAVE THE STRENGTH
AND COURAGE
AND FAITH
AND LOVE
TO KNOW
HOW IMPORTANT
THEY ARE
AND THAT
THEY ARE
WORTHWHILE
AND WORTHY
OF LIFE
NOT TO
GO THAT ROUTE
EACH SITUATION
IS DIFFERENT
EACH THOUGHT
OF CIRCUMSTANCE
MAY BE NOT THE SAME
BUT TO A HEART
THAT HAS
HURT FOR
MANY MANY
YEARS
OVER
THE HOLES
THEY LEAVE
IN MY HEART
TO THOSE
I DON’T KNOW
YET STILL
LEAVE A MARK
SO MANY SCARS
YET I STILL
HAVE HOPE
I STILL LOVE
AND I STILL
CARE
AND I CRY
CAUSE I CARE
AND CARRY ON!!!
