FINELINES

FINELINES

S.JENSEN © 2017

HOPE IS A DANGEROUS

THING

HOPE HAS KILLED

MORE OF

MY FRIENDS

THAN ANYTHING ELSE

COMBINED JUST THOUGHT

THE RIGHT SOMEONE

WOULD HAVE

BEEN SMARTER

THAN THAT

THIS IS WHERE IT

ALL ENDS

AND BEGINS

FROM THE STRUGGLED

FIGHTS

TO ALWAYS BE

UP AGAINST FATHOMING ODDS

GREW UP TRAINED

ON GAMES AND MOVIES

SETS YOU TO BE

A WARRIOR

FROM THE START

PUSHING THE LIMITS

OF THE MIND

BODY

AND SOUL

ALWAYS IN MY LIFE

TO SENSE

TO KNOW

TO HEAR

NEVER TO AID

BUT EVERY NOW

AND THEN

AND EVEN THEN

NOT SO MUCH

WIND FAN BLOWING

THE EDGES OF THE PAPER

AS I WRITE

THE PEN DIES

SO I FIND ANOTHER

I SEARCH AND

NEVER GET ANYWHERE

THERE IS A FINE LINE

TO DRAW IN THIS

NEVER SUCCUMB

TO

THIS BLESSED CURSE

OH TO THE WAVES

OF PAIN

THAT WHEN IT SETS IN

OH IT SETS IN

AND TAKES MY SMILE

AWAY

OH SO MUCH TAKES

MY SMILE AWAY

JUST UP AND ITS GONE

IN BLINK OF AN EYE

THERE ARE MOMENTS

WHERE BLISS

IS FELT

AND I CAN SMILE

IN HAPPINESS

EVEN IF ITS ONLY

MOMENTARY

I DON’T HAVE ALL

THE ANSWERS

JUST MY THOUGHTS

AND WHAT I KNOW

AS I AM STUCK IN THIS

OF WHAT

HAPPENED

IN THE AFTER POINTS

OF WHERE I

SO FACED MY OWN

PERSONAL JUDGMENT

TO THE THINGS OF

WHO I AM

WHO I WAS

AND WHO I WILL

ALWAYS BE

SEEMS SO

FAR FAR AWAY

IN A SPECK OF

DUST

THAT LEFT NO

RUST

JUST AGED WITH

GRACE

AND HOW TIRED

I AM

AND YET I KNOW

ITS JUST

HOW IT IS

AND WHAT I DISCOVERED

AFTER THAT

POINT

HAS PLAGUED

MY MIND

ON KEYS

GATES

QUANTUM STUFF

TO EVEN

MAGIC AND GOD

THE THINGS SO FAR

APART

FROM EACH OTHER

AND YET SO

CLOSE IN ANOTHER POINT

THE BALANCE

TO FIND GOOD

OR EVIL

AND OH AM I IN

THE GOOD SIDE

AND DON’T WANT

TO LOSE IT

BUT SO MUCH

SEEMS

TO LEAVE ME

MORE NOW

IN THE

LUKE WARM

SPOT

SO I WORRY

MASSIVELY

THAT I AM NOT WHERE

I SHOULD BE

NOR DO I KNOW

HOW TO GET TO

WHERE I NEED

TO BE

I AM JUST AM

RIGHT NOW

AS IF WAITING

ON SOMETHING

OR SOMEONE

TO AID IN

KNOWING

AND I AM CALM

ON THE OUTSIDE

AND SO UPSIDE

DOWN INSIDE OUT

ON THE INSIDE

…

HUN WHAT YOU SAYING

I KNOW I SO KNOW IT

I AM JUST TRYING NOT

TO KNOW

THAT MAY BE A BAD THING

NOW

SO I HAVE TO

DECIDE

KNOWING NOW

THAT WHICH I DIDN’T KNOW

BEFORE

TO WHAT HAS HAPPENED

ALREADY

TO WHAT HAS NOT

NOR MAY NEVER

OR WILL BE CERTAIN

BASED ON THE

WAY THINGS ARE GOING

AND HOW

WILL I SURVIVE

I HAVE NO CLUE

AND THAT BOTHERS ME

NEVER NOT BEFORE

HAD A NO CLUE

ALWAYS BEFORE

I WAS LIKE TWO OR THREE

STEPS INTO IT AHEAD

SEEING IT BEFORE

AND NOW I DON’T HAVE

THAT

ITS FRUSTRATING

MASSIVELY

BUT IT TELLS ME

WHICH DIRECTION

THEY ARE GOING

AND WHAT IS TO COME

FOR CERTAIN NOW

FACTS

A CAUSED B

AND B LED TO C

AND NOW C

IS GOING INTO

THE ANSWER

WHICH D + IS NOTHING

BUT REPEATED

OVER AND OVER

AND OVER

AND WHAT WE KNOW

IS GONNA CHANGE

BEYOND ANYTHING

WE CARE TO KNOW

ABOUT

SIGH

AM I HAPPY

ON THAT HELL

NO

CAN I FEEL I CAN

DO ANYTHING

ON THAT HELL

NO

DO I SENSE IT

OH HELL YES I DO

HELPLESSNESS

COMES TO MIND

BUT ALL I CAN DO IS SET IT TO BE THESE THINGS NOW…

OVERCOMING

AND STANDING GROUND

MAKES ME THINK

ITS ALL THERE IS

WHAT IS HAPPENING

IS NOT FROM ME

NOR CAN I DO ANYTHING

I WAS GIVEN SOMETHING

AFTER THE FACT

AND

I CAN’T DO ANYTHING

ON IT EITHER

SO LOST

IN THIS

AND YET I AM STILL

OK

BUT FOR HOW

LONG

I JUST DON’T KNOW

HOW THIS

WILL GO

BUT THE ODDS

DON’T LOOK

FOR PEACE

WHERE I REMAIN

THINGS OUT HERE CAN BE SO

IN A VERY TOXIC WAY

NEGATIVE SO EASILY

SO I KEEP

MY POSITIVE AND CONTINUE THROUGH THE FINE LINES OF IT ALL !

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WE ALL REALIZE EVENTUALLY THAT THINGS ARE NEVER AS WE THOUGHT THEY WERE AND FIND AWAY TO WORK THROUGH IT ALL AND GO ON TO MY FRIEND ALWAYS A FRIEND ALWAYS >>> <3

WAITING...