DIRECTED AND UNDIRECTED NETWORKED EDGES
DIRECTED AND UNDIRECTED
EDGES
S.JENSEN © 2017
TIME HEALS THEY SAY
YET IT SO TOOK TIME
TO BE INSPIRED AGAIN
SO HARD IS IT
SOME DAYS I SAY
FUCK IT
JUST GIVE UP
GIVE IN
YET SOMETHING
WON’T LET ME
SILENCE DEAFENS
WORDS I NEED TO FIND
BUT LOST
ALL SOMEHOW
ANYHOW
ALONG THE WAY
I CAN’T
BE THE ONLY ONE
IN THIS NOW
WHEN I CAN’T SEEM
TO WRITE
WHEN I CAN’T SEEM
TO PAINT
WHEN I CAN’T SEEM
TO THINK
WHEN I CAN’T SEEM
TO READ
FOR WHATS ON MY MIND
WEIGHS SO HEAVY
CAN’T BE ALONE
IN THAT
CHANGED IN THE BLINK
OF AN EYE
THAT INFINITE TIME
OF LIFE
HOW SLOW THAT
INEVITABLE MOMENT
CAN BE
I CAN’T SEEM TO FOCUS
HERE ALONE
SOME DAYS THE MAD MUSE
STRIKES
AND I CAN CREATE
IN MADNESS
WORDS AT LEAST
TO SOME DIRECTED DEGREE
OR ANGLES OF STROKES
THAT DELINEATE
EDGES TO PAINT
THE THERAPY OF THAT
DEFINABLE MOMENT
YET ITS IN
A MADNESS
OF TRYING TO
COVER UP
ALL THAT BOILS
BELOW MY SURFACES
ITS SO CRAWLING
OUT THE WINDOW
DROWNED INSIDE
EMOTIONS
IN LEARNING
DESIGNING
DRAWING
YET SOMETIMES
THE SPARKS SO LEAVE
ME LACKING
AND LOST WHEN GONE
OH SO FREAKING
LOST WHEN GONE
WHEN I AM NOT CONNECTED
CHANGED EVERYTHING
IN YOU
IN ME
CARRIED ON
FOUGHT YEARS
TO BE WITHOUT FEAR
IT LEAVES A HOLE
THAT THIS HEART
CAN’T REPLACE
IN THE WITHOUT
I SIT HERE
LISTENING TO
FRIENDS WORDS
CONFIDED AND LOST
IN MY WAY OFF
THOUGHTS
LOYAL AND DEVOTED
TO SOMEONE
I WAS SO NOT
AND SO UNDONE
I COULD NEVER HAVE
BELONGED TO ANOTHER
AND I KNEW IT
YET GOD HELP ME
GOD HELP US BOTH
IT STILL CREEPS IN
I STRUGGLE
WITH IT CONSTANTLY
TO MAKE THE HEART GO ON
WHEN IT LOVES
BOTH SO DEEPLY
AND LEAVES
THIS CRAVED OH DAMN
FEELING
TO BE NEAR
A FRIEND SO DEAR
GOD IT CHANGED
ALL IN IT
HOW COULD IT NOT
WEEKS OF SO CALLED
HEALING
COMBATING COMFORT ZONES
EMBARRESSED
EXPRESSIONS
AND PAGES UPON
PAGES OF THOUGHTS
PUSHING THE MIND
PUSHING THE BODY
PUSHING EVERYTHING
REFUSING CHAOS
ITS RULE
YET SO CHAOTIC
SCATTERED THOUGHTS
ARE ARRANGED
CAN BE JUST
NO OTHER WORD FOR
IT BUT NOT THE SAME
WHEN FORCED
TO STAY AWAY
CAUSE OF THE ATTRACTED
MADNESS
OF THE UNTHINKABLE
DARKNESS
GOD ANGER RAGED
IN ME
WANTING JUSTICE
FOR THAT WHICH
I KNOW NOT WHERE
TO PLACE IT
IF NOT HALF ON MYSELF
I BATTLED TO LEARN
WHAT I CAN
OF THE INSIDES
AND OUTSIDES
OF COMPUTERS
NOT KNOWING ANYTHING
AND DOING WHAT HAD TO BE DONE
RACED TO FIGHT
RAGED ON
WITH A SHADOW BY
MY SIDE
NOW IS IT DONE
OH HOW FOOLISH
AND OH HOW IT CHANGED
ALL INVOLVED
SOMEDAYS I WONDER
IS MY SOUL DOOMED NOW
AS MY HEART
SEEMS SO LOCKED
ITS NOT SOMETHING
ONE CAN JUST
FORGET SO EASILY
THAT DESIRED CRAVING
SO CRAZY NOTION
IT SEARED MY BRAIN
ALONE YET NOT ALONE
NEVER EVER ALONE
KNOW TIME IS
TICKING AWAY
AS I STILL FIGHT
FOR TO LIVE
AND EXPRESS
MY TALENTED SELF
IN SOME FORM OF
PERSONAL PUNISHMENT
FOR MY PART IN IT
OH TO THE EDGES
WE ALL RUN FROM
AND RUN TO
AND GOD DAMN IT
DO I MISS
THAT PART OF MY HEART
WHERE MY
UGLY OUTSIDE BEAST
MEETS MY INNER
DIVINITY
TO THE TOUCH
OF WYRD
IT CREATED
HUMAN INSANITY
STRUCK
LIKE A LIGHTNING BOLT
NO OTHER WAY
TO EXPLAIN IT
FROM WHO I WAS
TO WHO I FOUND OUT
WHO I AM
AND TO EMOTIONS
OF WHAT IT ALL FREAKING MEANS
OH MY FEELINGS
IN THOSE WORDS
SPOKEN
I CAN’T HELP YOU
GO BACK
THE DEEP CONNECTION
OF RUNNING
IN BETWEEN
SPACES I KNOW
NOTHING ABOUT
AND YET
FOUGHT SO HARD
TO STAY
AND STAY I AM
FOR NOW
HOW LONG
I HAVE NO CLUE
OF WHO YOU ARE
WHAT IT DONE
TO US ALL
LEAVES NO WORDS
BUT
FRIENDSHIP
OF A HIGHER PURPOSE
OF A LOVE
TRANSCENDING
AND CASCADING
WATERFALLS
OVER FLOWS
WHERE IT HAS TO BE
LEFT
OH THIS JUGS
ETERNAL WATER
NO ONE HAS EVER
PENETRATED
TO THE CORE
OF THIS SOUL
SO MUCH
IN SUCH SHORT TIME
MY SOUL
IS HARD WITH IT
CONSUMED
OVERWHELMED
AND LEFT IN
EDGES
SO DIRECTED
AND UNDIRECTED
LIKE MATH
IN AND OUT
OF MY BRAIN
FOR I CAN’T SEEM
TO LIVE WITHOUT
YET I CARRY ON
LIKE A ZOMBIE
INSIDE
AND EXPRESS
OUTSIDE SO
METAPHORICALLY
JUST LOST
GOD I AM SO
ALONE
SO KNOTTED
BY EVERYTHING
AND I HAVE NO ONE
TO BLAME
BUT MYSELF
AND YET
I AM NOT ALONE
IN THAT
OH TO MORTAL LOVE
AND HOW IT
HAS DRIVEN
ME COMPLETELY
TO THE EDGES
IN A SPACE
ONLY EXPRESSED
WITH TEARS
A DEAR JOY
AND SADNESS
MET ALL IN ONE
HOW DO WE GO ON
SO FAR APART…
OH GOD
ITS LEFT A HELL
OF A MARK
I CAN’T BE
THE ONLY
ONE
ITS SO
CHANGED
...
PATTERNS
EDGES
CRAVINGS
AND DESIRES
OF SINS
I NEVER COMMITT
YET OH MY MIND
SO CREATED
SO DELIVERED
AND SO NOW
JUST SITS
ON A EDGED LEDGE
OF HOW DO
I GO ON
HOW DO I LEAVE
IT JUST LEAVE IT
AS IT SEEMS
I HAVE FOR FEW
YEARS BEEN
FORCED TO DO
LOST ALL
TO HOLD MY HEART
TRUE FOR WHAT
ENDING...
I CAN'T BE IN
THAT ALONE...
ITS TOO DEEP IN MY
CORE NOW...
SO I JUST EXIST...
