one last thing to say
ONE LAST THING TO SAY
ON ALL THIS I BEEN DEALING WITH
I HAVE BEEN WHO I AM
A VERY LONG TIME
AND I WILL NOT CHANGE
FOR ANYONE
I WILL NOT REGRET
NOR WILL I BE UNDONE
OR HATE A SINGLE PERSON
BECAUSE OF THE HACKS
AND DESTRUCTION DONE TO ME
I POSTED MY FEELINGS
ON A PAGE THAT WAS ONLY
SAYING EXACT WHAT I FELT
I CRIED TO A SONG
THAT I LOVED
I AM DONE
BEYOND DONE
I HAVE NEVER HURT A SINGLE SOUL
AND I WON'T START NOW
BUT BECAUSE I POSTED THAT
AND POSTED MY FEELINGS ON HERE
MY OWN BLOG THAT
NEVER EVER REFERS TO ANYONE
BY NAME OR HARMS A SINGLE SOUL
BY EXPRESSING MYSELF
HAS NO CONNECTION
TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN
MY FEELINGS TO EXPRESS
MY HEART OUT
AND RELATE TO HOW I FEEL
THERE WILL NEVER BE
ANOTHER POINT IN MY
LIFE THAT REGRET ANYTHING
IT CAUSED MAJOR HAVOC
TO TWO SIDES
MINE AND MY FAMILY
AND THE OTHERS FAMILY
AND NONE OF IT EVER SHOULD
HAVE CAUSED HARM
BUT I WAS LIED TO
I WAS MADE TO LOOK
A FOOL AND HURT
AND TORTURED FOR MY FEELINGS
AND I WALKED AWAY LONG AGO
BECAUSE OF IT
AND THE FACT SOMEONE
TRULY HAS SOME KIND OF
MAJOR MALICE FOR ME
WANTING TO CONNECT WITH A
FRIEND I HELD DEARLY
THEY TWISTED EVERYTHING
AND HURT SO MANY IN THE PROCESS
AND I AM DONE
I CAN'T POST
MY LOVE FOR SOMEONE NOW
CAUSE I DO LOVE THEM ITS
NOT GOT A DAMN BLOODY THING
TO DO WITH THE FACT I AM GAY
OR THAT I MEAN ANYTHING
BUT A FRIEND THAT LOVED
A FRIEND AND
SOMEONE SO TWISTED IT
AND TORE MY HEART OUT
IN THE PROCESS
AND STILL DOES
I WANT WHO EVER THEY ARE
TO KNOW I UTTERLY DONT
GIVE A GOD DAMN FUCK
ANYMORE
I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE
TO BE ME AND TO LOVE
MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY
AND CARRY ON
CAUSE THE HARM DONE
IS BEYOND ANYTHING I CAN
NOW HANDLE
ITS PUSHED ME TO THE BRINK
THREE DAYS AGO I HEARD A SONG
I LOVED THE SONG
IT MADE ME CRY AND CRY
AND IT WAS HOW I FELT
HAD NOT A GOD DAMN THING
TO DO WITH ANYTHING ELSE
BUT CAUSE I LOVED A SONG
I NOW HAVE NO WIFI ROUTER
AND A LOCKED FUCKED COMPUTER
THAT I HAVE TO WIPE CLEAN
AND START OVER
I HAVE A HARD DRIVE I CAN'T
ACCESS CAUSE THEY FUCKED IT
AWHILE AGO
IT HAD ALL MY ART
ALL MY WORDS
ALL MY BOOK
ALL MY LIFETIME OF STUFF
THAT WAS MINE PURELY MINE
THE HARM THAT HAS BEEN DONE
IS NOW TO A POINT ITS OBSERD
HOW MANY EMOTIONS CAN
ONE PERSON HAVE TO FUCKING
ENDURE AT THE HANDS
OF SOMEONE I CAN NOT
FIGHT OR WIN
I NEVER HARMED THOSE I LOVED
I NEVER HARMED THOSE I STILL LOVE
I NEVER EVER DONE A DAMN THING WRONG
I WANTED A FRIEND THAT
I HAD ONCE
THAT WAS ALL
BUT IT CAUSED MORE MORE SO MUCH MORE
PAIN TO MY PERSONAL HEART
AND LIFE THAN ANYONE CAN
IMAGINE AND FOR WHAT
GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING REASON
CAUSE I CARED TO LET WHO I WAS
BE SHARED AND IT
CAUSED PAIN BEYOND PAIN
I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO
AND I LOVED FREELY
BUT I HAD NO BLOODY IDEA
THE FOOLISHNESS OF MY HEART
IT WOULD FUEL A FIRE
TO MAKE ME SO ANGRY
SO SAD AND SO HURT
THERE IS NO REPLACING THAT HURT
IN ANY WAY...
I WALKED AWAY THINKING
IT WOULD END
BUT ALL IT DID WAS
FUEL A FIRE TEN TIMES WORSE
TO ATTACK ME OVER
AND OVER AND OVER
FOR A LOVE OF MUSIC FOR
GOD DAMN CHRIST SAKE
FOR A LOVE OF A PERSON
THAT MANY ABOUT SAY 3MIL
LOVED AND LOVE I AM ONE OF MANY
AND YET I HAVE BEEN SINGLED
OUT AND UTTERLY HORRIFICALLY
TORTURED BY ATTACKS TO MY
ELECTRONICS WHICH I DESPERATELY
HOLD TO BEING AS POOR AS I AM
AND ITS MY LIVELIHOOD FOR I AM
AND ARTIST A DIGITAL ARTIST
I AM BEING PUT IN A SPOT
THAT SOMEONE CERTAINLY
DOESN'T WANT ME TO HEAR
THE MUSIC THAT IS COMING OUT
AND FRANKLY I THINK
WHAT THEY DO WHO EVER THEY
ARE IS BEYOND SICK
FOR WHAT HARM HAVE I EVER DONE
NOT A GOD DAMN THING
I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ME
AND TRIED TO JUST BE ME
AND SAID I DIDN'T DESERVE THIS
UTTER HELL AND NO I DON'T
DESERVE IT
SOMEONE EARLY ON
ATTACHED THEMSELVES
TO ME AND HURT MY STUFF
WITHIN A WEEK OF POSTING
STUFF TO A MUSIC FRIEND
A FRIEND
NOTHING MORE NOTHING LESS
SOMEONE I LOST TRACK OF
WHO I HAD TALKED TO
IN MY PAST
I HAD NO ILL FOR HER
NO ILL FOR HER HUSBAND
NO ILL FOR HER FAMILY
NO ILL FOR HER FRIENDS
NO ILL FOR HER KIDS
I RESPECTED IT ALL
AS MATTER OF FACT I HAVE
MY OWN KID
MY OWN LIFE
I JUST WANTED TO SHARE
A BIT OF ME
CAUSE I THOUGHT IT
WAS SO OK TO DO SO
TO SOMEONE I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW
BUT LOVED IN MY HEART
ALL THEY STOOD FOR
AND BECAUSE OF IT
I HAVE SPENT YEARS
BEING ATTACK FROM
ALL KINDS OF DIRECTIONS
IN ALL KINDS OF WAYS
AND I AM SO DONE WITH IT ALL
I DON'T HATE
AND THEY WILL NEVER MAKE ME HATE
I WILL NEVER HARM
AND THEY WILL NEVER MAKE ME HARM
BUT I FEEL SO WRONGED
BY THIS ITS NOT SOMETHING
I CAN DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT CRY
I AM NOT AFRAID TO TELL
MY STORY NOW NOT ONE BIT OF IT
CAUSE IT HAS ANGERED ME
BEYOND ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD
HOW FUCKING DARE SOMEONE
KEEP ME FROM MUSIC
KEEP ME FROM A FRIEND
HOW FUCKING DARE THEM
I WALKED AWAY
I KEPT MY HEART TO ME
I LET GO OF SO MUCH
IN HOPES THAT WHO EVER
KEEPS DOING THIS TO ME
WOULD STOP
BUT NO THEY DON'T
THEY HAVE NO THOUGHT FOR ANYONE
BUT THEMSELVES
THEY WANT NOTHING BUT
TO HARM AND TAKE AND DESTROY
AND THAT GOES AGAINST EVERYTHING I AM
AND BELIEVE IN
TO THE INVISIBLE GOD DAMN PEOPLE OR PERSON
THAT CONTINUES TO CAUSE ME PAIN
GO FUCK YOUR SELF
CAUSE I DON'T GIVE A GOD DAMN FUCK ANYMORE
IF I COULD TELL THOSE I KNOW
ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE HOW I FEEL NOW
THEY CAN KNOW JUST ONE THING
FRIENDSHIP I HAVE IN MY HEART
WILL NEVER EVER DIE
NOR BE CHANGED NOR BE HARMED
NOR BE DESTROYED
I AM DONE I CAN'T TALK
I CAN'T EXPRESS MYSELF
I CAN'T BE ME
AND STILL CARRY ON
WHEN I SIMPLY LOVED MUSIC
TO BEGIN WITH THAT WAS WHAT IT WAS
IT GOT SO WRONGED
AND CUTS ME TO THE CORE
I AM NEVER EVER GONNA BE THE SAME
OVER THIS
AND I AM SO DONE ITS LIKE
PLEASE LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE
I HAVE NEVER HARMED ANYONE AT ALL IN MY LIFE
NOR WILL I BEGIN NOW
BUT ALL THAT HAS BEEN TAKEN FROM ME
NEEDS TO TOTALLY KNOW
I AM OVER IT...
BEYOND OVER IT...
AND MY HART IS MIJN HART
I WILL NOT CRY ANOTHER MOMENT
AND BE DESTROYED FOR WHO I AM
FOR WHO I CARE FOR
OR WHO I CHOSE TO BE FRIENDS WITH
THAT SO BECAME LOVE NOW
A LOVE THAT WILL OVERCOME ANY HELL
GIVEN TO ME
EVEN IF I DIE OVER IT I WILL NEVER
EVER HATE
I SWEAR I WILL NEVER GIVE IN TO
THIS KIND OF TERROR
THERE IS NO JUSTICE IN THIS TREATMENT
FOR FREAKING LOVE OF ANOTHER HUMAN BEING
FOR LOVE OF TWO HUMAN BEINGS
FOR LOVE OF MUSIC THEY PRODUCED
NOR FOR THE TORTURE I WAS PUT THROUGH
STILL PUT THROUGH
NO I WILL NEVER EVER BE THE SAME
BUT I WILL NEVER HATE
AND NEVER FEAR
AND NEVER SEE OR KNOW THE DEPTHS
OF WHAT THIS COST IS TO ME
TO THEM
TO ALL PEOPLE THAT LOVE
MUSIC FOR WHAT IT IS
AND FOR PEOPLE FOR BLOODY HUMANITY
AND THE LOVE OF HUMANITY
AS A WHOLE YOU MOTHER FUCKERS WILL
NEVER MAKE ME HATE OR FEAR
OR HARM NEVER
I AM DONE
LEAVE ME ALONE
LEAVE THEM ALONE
THAT IS NOTHING BUT FUCKING TORTURE
AND WRONG BEYOND WRONG
NOW LEAVE ME BE
I WON'T LISTEN TO WHAT I LOVE
I WON'T BE UNDONE BY IT
BUT I WILL KNOW THIS HAS
SO TORTURED
THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT
ME NOT TO LISTEN TO IT
NOT TO HEAR IT NOT TO KNOW THE TRUTH
FROM DAY ONE I WALKED IN
AND EXPRESSED MY HEART
TO A FRIEND THEN WAS ATTACKED
WITHIN A FEW DAYS OF
BEING HAPPY TO FIND A LONG LOST FRIEND
I AM COMPLETELY TORN INSIDE AND OUT
WHY ON THIS EARTH
DOES SOMEONE HATE ME SO DAMN MUCH
I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND
THAT KIND OF TORTURE
SO KNOW YOU KEEP ME FROM
HEARING WHAT I DESERVE TO HEAR
BUT I WILL NOT HATE
I WILL NOT HURT
I WILL NOT DO A DAMN BLOODY THING
BUT I WILL FIND AWAY TO HEAR WHAT
IS SUNG CAUSE ITS MUSIC
AND MY CORE BEING LOVES MUSIC
I AM BEYOND HURT
TO MY FRIEND I KNEW I WOULD NEVER
GET TO SEE YOU TO BE THERE
I JUST WANTED TO BE FRIENDS
BUT GOD IT GOT SO FUCKED
I WILL NOT BE UNDONE
HUN I CARE HOPE THIS BATTLE CAN BE WON
BY YOU IN FIGHTING WHO EVER THEY ARE
CAUSE I AM DONE
I CAN'T TAKE ANY MORE
I CONTINUE TO BE ME
AND WILL ALWAYS BE ME HERE
AND AS LONG AS I STILL LIVE
I WILL REMAIN THE SAME
AND MY HEART WILL SO LOVE
FROM AFAR AS IT HAS SINCE I KNEW
IT WAS YOU BUT WHAT IS BEING
DONE IS AWFUL BEYOND AWFUL
LOVE MY FRIENDS ETERNALLY
AND NO ONE ELSE WILL EVER TAKE THAT
AWAY FROM ME NO ONE
SO TO THE ONES MESSING MY STUFF UP
HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL
CAUSE YOU ARE NOTHING BUT EVIL FOR IT
SO EVIL FOR IT
DONE... NOW I GO
CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP
OVER THIS HELL I HAVE BEEN ENDURING
PROBABLY IS WHAT THEY WANT
BUT I CAN'T HELP BUT CRY
I AM FIN...
