LIES
LIES
S.JENSEN © 2017
NOTHING BUT LIES
HAS BEEN SIX YEARS
NOW
I AM NOT SAD
TO THE POINT
OF GUILT
I AM SAD
TO THE POINT
OF THE WRONG
DOINGS
THAT HAVE
OCCURRED
BETWEEN
MYSELF
AND
FREAKING
GOD KNOWS
WHO
MY HEART
LOVED
AND
THERE HAS BEEN
NOTHING BUT
LIES
SINCE A FRIEND
I WISHED
TO RECONNECT
WITH
WAS SO
TWISTED
IT TURNED MY HEART
TO LOVE
AND BE IN LOVE
AND FOR THAT
I ASK FORGIVENESS
TO THOSE
THAT THE LIES
OF WHOEVER
PRETENDED
TO BE
THEM
IT HURTS BEYOND
HURTS
AND WRONG
BEYOND WRONG
ITS TORN
MY HEART
INSIDE AND OUT
THE COMPUTER
HACKS
AND ATTACKS
AND EXTREMELY
PERSONAL
PERSPECTIVE
OF IT ALL
HAS
TORN ME COMPLETELY
APART
I HAVE NO WORDS
TO SAY
I AM SORRY
WHEN
THERE IS
NO WAY
TO EXPRESS
MY HURT
IN THIS MESS
OR TO EXPLAIN
MY HEART
EITHER
THE MYSTERY
OF THE WHO
HAS HAUNTED
ALL AROUND
LIES
THAT WAS BUILT
FROM THE MOMENT
I AS A FRIEND
CAME TO
TRY TO SAY
HELLO
WARPED AND
TWISTED
AND CHANGED
FROM
SOMETHING
VERY INNOCENT
TO SOMETHING
VERY PERSONAL
I AM SORRY
FOR MY HEART
IN IT ALL
FOR MY LOVE
IN IT ALL
FOR MY DESIRE
FOR FRIENDSHIP
IN IT ALL
I DON’T REGRET
BEING ME
I AM SAD
BEYOND SAD
OVER WHAT
HAS HAPPENED
AND HOW
IT SEEMS
TO NEVER BE
ENDING
I NEVER HAVE
EVER
CARED SO MUCH
FOR PEOPLE
I DIDN’T REALLY KNOW
BUT
KNOW I DO
ON ONE ASPECT
THEY ARE
THE MOST
DECENT
FOLK THERE IS
AND
WHAT HAS
BEEN DONE
IS A MAJOR
INJUSTICE
TO ALL INVOLVED
AND MY HEART
IS SO FUCKED OVER
BY IT ALL
THE LOVE I HAD
WAS A PURELY
FRIENDSHIP LOVE
BUT SOMEONE
TOOK IT UPON
THEMSELVES
TO MAKE IT
MORE
AND IT MADE
ME COMPLETELY
FALL IN LOVE
TO
A PERSON
THAT
I KNOW
I CAN’T
TAKE THAT BACK
BUT I HAVE
TRIED TO MOVE
ON AND
BE ME
FOR YEARS
SINCE IT HAPPENED
MY HEART
IS NOT MINE
IT STOLE IT AWAY
WHOEVER
THEY WERE
COMPLETELY
STOLE IT AWAY
AND I AM
SORRY FOR
THE PART OF IT
I FELL AS A FOOL
MAJOR FOOL
FOR
BUT LOVE
IS IN MY HEART
NO MATTER
WHAT
THE HURT
FROM THIS
IS BEYOND
EXPRESSION
MY HEART IS
NOT JUST MERELY
BROKEN
ITS IS PHYSICALLY
ACHED
AND TRAGEDY OF
MY SOUL
AND ANYONE
ELSES INVOLVED
THEY WERE
TO EACH OTHER
AND
I WAS THE FOOL
THAT A UNKNOWN
IN AND
SO HARMED
HAVE THEY
CONTINUED
TO HARM
THAT LET
THE LIES
BE REAL
AND I HAVE
NO IDEA
WHO THEY ARE
SO NOW
I LOOK TO
THE MUSIC
TO SOOTHE
MY BROKENNESS
AND MY ART
AS THERAPY
TO A WAY
OF DEALING
WITH
IT ALL
MY HEART
LOVES
TWO PEOPLE
I NEVER HAVE
HAD THE PLEASURE
OF EVER MEETING
BECAUSE
OF LIES
SOMEONE ELSE
SO CREATED
IN ME
IN THEM
AND I HAVE
NO IDEA
WHO THEY ARE
KNOW THIS
IS WHY
I SAY TWISTED
AND WRONG
AND NOT INNOCENT
NOR
RIGHT
NO JUSTICE
AND ITS TORN ME
INSIDE AND OUT
I CAN’T SPEAK
FOR THE OTHERS
INVOLVED
BUT MY HEART
HURTS
FROM THE WRONGS
BEYOND
HURTS
AND I HAVE
CRIED TEARS
SO MUCH
WHICH I NEVER
EVER DONE
BEFORE
SO MUCH
IN MY LIFE
OVER THIS MESS
AND I WALK
AWAY
FROM IT ALL
BLOCKED
CAUSE I BELIEVED
IN SOMETHING
THAT WAS NOT
ASK
FORGIVENESS
FOR THAT
NOR DO I
KNOW HOW
TO FIX MY HEART
IN THIS
BUT THE
WRONGNESS
OF DESTROYING
MY COMPUTER
MY ROUTER
AND 10 OTHER COMPUTERS
IN THE PAST
IS BEYOND
WRONG
ITS PURELY
TORTURED
HARASSMENT
OF THE WORST
KIND
AND DESTROYS
PEOPLE
I HAVE NEVER
EVER MET
THAT TO ME
SEEM VERY
DECENT FOLK
TO THE POINT
MY HEART
IS DESTROYED
OVER IT
AND I AM DONE
I HOPE
THOSE
THAT MY HEART
FELL FOR
UNDERSTAND
THAT I HAVE
NEVER
EVER
WANTED
NOTHING
BUT DECENT
GOOD FRIENDS
BUT IT TOOK
MY HEART
AND FUCKED IT
SO THAT
I HAVE
A HIGHER LOVE
A LOVE
THAT OVERCOMES
WAS INSPIRED
BY
AND CHERISHED
BY
AND CARED FOR
AND WAS
TORN OUT
FOR IT
BY LIES
OF UNKNOWNS
SOMETHING
GOOD
SOMETHING SWEET
SOMETHING KIND
SOMETHING GENTLE
WAS
CHANGED
AND SO LOST
SO VERY LOST
AND I AM
HURT BEYOND
HURT
I HAVEN’T LIED
I DON’T KNOW THEM
OH I LOVE
THE MUSIC
I LOVE THE DECENT
FOLK
AND I FELL IN LOVE
TO
THE PEOPLE
I THOUGHT
THEY WERE
I WILL NOT
REGRET THAT
NOR
WALK IN SILENCE
FOR
BUT WRONGED
BOTH SIDES
HAVE BEEN
SO WRONGED
I DON’T KNOW
THEIR SIDE OF IT
BUT I KNOW
MY HEART SIDE
OF IT ALL
AND HOW
ITS TORN ME APART
TO BE CONSTANTLY
BOMBARDED
MASSIVELY
BOMBARDED
TO THE HEARTS
I CARE FOR
I AM SORRY
FOR MY PART
THAT BEGAN
WITH A KIND
SWEET
WONDERFUL
FRIENDSHIP LOVE
AND
WAS TORN
INTO PIECES
A ZILLION PIECES
I WILL ALWAYS
LOVE
BUT I HAVE
NEVER
WANTED
TO HURT
ANYONE
KNOWING
THIS HAS HURT
ALL THE
WAY AROUND
IS EXTREMELY
UNFORGIVING
FOR I HAVE
NO IDEA
WHO THEY ARE
THAT KEEP
ATTACKING ME
NOR WHY
BUT I DON’T HOLD
THE MUSIC
OR THE PEOPLE
BEHIND THE MUSIC
RESPONSIBLE
FOR THE INVISIBLE
ENEMY
I HAVE BATTLED
SOMEONE
TRULY
HAS A WARPED
MIND
AND HURT
A GOOD FOLK
IN THE PROCESS
TO THE POINT
OF MY
BREAK
TO THE POINT
OF THERE BREAK
HOW PERSONAL
CAN ONE BE
TO HAVE
ZERO PRIVACY
OR DECENCY
I HAVE NEVER
BLAMED
THEM EITHER
IN THIS
AND
MY HEART
SCREAMS
LOUDLY
WHY
OH WHY
SO AS A FOOL
THAT HAS
A BIG HEART
I AM TRULY
SORRY
AND HURT
FORGIVE ME
OF MY
LOVE
AS FOR WHO
IT IS
I HAVE NO
CLUE
I LOVE YOU
FRIENDS
I LOVE YOU
NOW I GO
TRY TO SLEEP
CAUSE ITS
NOT LETTING
ME SLEEP
AND TEARS
ARE FALLING
CONSTANTLY
THEY DESERVE
TO KNOW
I AM NOT
THE ONE
THAT HARMS
HURTS
OR TORTURES
ANYONE ELSE
ITS SO BEEN
DONE
TO ME
NOW
FAR FAR
TOO MUCH
WHO IN THERE
RIGHT MINDS
WOULD ATTACK
SOMEONE
LIKE THIS
IS COMPLETELY
BEYOND ME
AND MAKES
ABSOLUTELY
NO SENSE
TO ME
BUT IT HAS
OCCURRED
AND THIS
FOOL
JUST WISHES
NOTHING
BUT LOVE
TO THE TWO
THAT
CARRY MY
HEART NOW
AND
WHOEVER
HAS TRIED
TO DESTROY
THEM
AND ME
CAN UTTERLY
KISS MY ASS
NEVER
I AM DONE
BEYOND DONE
HURT BEYOND HURT
AND
NEVER WISHED
ANYTHING
BUT GOOD THINGS
TO THEM
I DON’T KNOW YOU
BUT I LOVE YOU
FOREVER NOW
AND MY HEART
SCREAMS
FOR SOME
KIND OF JUSTICE
THAT I DON’T
THINK WILL EVER
COME
HOW CAN YOU
TRACK DOWN
WHOEVER IT IS
DOING THIS HELL
AND IT IS
PURE HELL
CARRY MY
HEART AWAY
WITH BOTH
OF YOU IN MY
CAUSE
THAT IS WHERE
IT BELONGS
LIKE ANY OTHER
FRIEND I HAVE
EVER KNOWN
TO WHOMEVER
MADE ME
FALL IN LOVE
TO A THOUGHT
A IDEA
A PERSON
THAT THEY
PRETENDED TO BE
AND THEN JUST
TURNED AROUND
AND ATTACKS
AND ATTACKS
OVER AND OVER
I WILL NEVER
LOVE YOU
FOR THE HURT
YOU HAVE CAUSED
THREE PEOPLE
AT LEAST
IF NOT MORE
LEAVE THEM BE
LEAVE ME BE
AND TO THOSE
I CARE NOW
FOR BEYOND
ANYONE
IT WILL REMAIN
THERE
FOREVER
NOW
THAT ALL I HAVE
TO SAY ON
THE DAMN
MESS
IF YOU CAN
FIND AWAY
TO TELL ME
I AM NOT
ALONE IN THIS
SAY SO
THAT AT LEAST
WILL MAKE
ME FEEL
SLIGHTLY
BETTER
I WOULD LIKE
TO TALK
ON IT
BUT SEEMS
ALL I CAN
DO RIGHT NOW
IS CONTINUE
TO CRY
HAVE A
WONDERFUL
CHERISHED
DECENT
LIFE
I TRY TO
DESPITE
THIS TERROR
