PATCHWORK
PATCHWORK
S.JENSEN © 2017
SITTING HERE
CONFINED
BACK TO THIS
ONE THING
HOLDS TO MY
HEART
A WILL
OH I GUESS
I WILL NEVER
HAVE IN MY HEART
IN YOUR HEART
SO FAR
INTO THE
NOTHINGNESS
AND MOMENT
MOVE
FASTER
AS TIME IS
NEAR
THE WINTER’S EDGE
WHERE I SO
WISHED
AND ALWAYS
DENIED
WAS THERE
ANY LOVE
DID I REALLY LOVE
YOU
OR WAS IT
ALL A LIE
ALL A FALSEHOOD
MISCONCEPTION
FEEL SO BETRAYED
AND DON’T
THINK I AM THE
ONLY ONE
ON THAT
DID IT MEAN
ANYTHING
OH SO WRONG
THE HURT IS GONE
NOW
A PART OF ME
SAYS IT SITS
DEAD
AND DOOMED
ANOTHER SAYS
LET IT GO
YOU WILL BE
OK EVEN IF
ALONE SO
IS IT JUST MY SIN
FOR LOVING
REALLY THAT BAD
THAT I AM
FOREVER
SET IN THIS
AM I THE ONLY
ONE THAT
FEELS
DONE SO WRONG
I AM BEYOND
SORRY
FOR ALL
THAT HAPPENED
REALLY
WASNT HOW
I WANTED IT
TO END UP
I AM SORRY
FOR FALLING
IN LOVE
CAN’T SEEM
TO SHAKE IT OFF
NO MATTER
HOW HARD
I TRY
OH I AM JUST
A COMPLETE
FOOL
LOST
SO LOST
IN THIS
AM I JUST
IN LOVE
TO SOMEONE
I CAN NEVER
HAVE
OH HAVE I
LOST EVERYTHING
ONLY TIME
WILL TELL
IN ITS
NARROWING
I FELL
INTO THE TRAP
EASILY
AND YET
STILL SIT HERE
DID ANYTHING
HAVE MEANING
OH MY
HEART CRYS OUT
OH I AM THE
HOPELESS
ROMANTIC
IN THE SENSES
I FEEL IT WAS YOU
IT HAD TO BE YOU
SOME PART
HAD TO BE TRUE
MAYBE NOT ALL
OF IT BUT
MY HEART SAYS
I COULDN’T HAVE
BEEN IN THIS
ALONE
I FEEL SO UNWANTED
SO LEFT
I WORK ON
WAYS TO RECOVER
AND BE AT PEACE
ON IT ALL
YET I WONDER
AM I THE ONLY
ONE THAT
LOVED
IN THIS
OH IT BROUGHT
ME TO THE
POINT OF
BREAKING
DEEP TO THE CORE
LEFT HERE
AND NOT MUCH
I CAN DO ABOUT
ANY OF IT
NOW
WAS IT SO
WRONG TO
BELIEVE IN YOU
AND I
SO
WHY CAN’T
I SEEM
TO CHANGE
THAT PART
THAT LOVES
YOU
NEVER
ENOUGH
OH TO ACTUALLY
HAVE SOMEONE
IN MY ARMS
AGAIN
AND YET
SOMETIMES
I HATE THAT
THOUGHT
WAS I WRONG
TO THINK
WE EVER WERE
MY FRIEND
HAVE I EVEN
BEEN SUCH
COMPLETE
BUFFOON
IN ALL OF THIS
DID I MAKE
YOU FEEL
OBLIGATED
IN ANY WAY
OH MY PATCHWORK
HEART’S
DOOR
RESTS THERE
AS TIME
TAKES ME
FARTHER
AND FARTHER
INTO SOME
KIND OF
NUMB NOTHINGNESS
WITHOUT YOU
THE MISSING
OF IT
FRANKLY
DRIVES ME INSANE
SOMETIMES
THAT NEED
OF COMFORT
NOT THE REST
JUST TO HAVE
YOU SOMEHOW
IN MY LIFE
DON’T KNOW
WHY
I SO WISH
YOU COULD
CARRY ME
FROM THIS
MESS
OH TO THE
FADING
PARTS
IN THIS
WINTER’S SNOW
ARE WE
TO BE
SO ALONE
MY LOVE IN
THIS CHANGED
TO BE COOLED
AND FRIENDSHIP
DESIRED
YET THAT SEEMS
DENIED AS WELL
AND THE DAYS
JUST GET
MORE AND MORE
HARD TO
FIGURE OUT
WHAT AM I
GONNA DO
PAIN TAKES
BACK OVER
I AM STRONG WILLED
SORRY FOR THAT
I AM INDEPENDENT
SORRY FOR THAT
HECK I AM SORRY
FOR SO MUCH
I COULD SEEM
TO BE ABLE
TO REACH
THAT DESIRED SPOT
I STILL STRIVE
FORWARD
AND I AM STILL
INSPIRED
BY ALL YOU DO
THE AURAS
OF US
MY FRIEND
STILL AS THE
BRANCHES
AS THE SUN
SHINES IN
ACROSS MY FACE
TO WARM
IN THIS COLD
SPACE
QUIET OH
SO QUIET NOW
SO TIRED
AND SOMEHOW
I KEEP GOING
THINK ITS ONLY
CAUSE I CAN
SEE YOU GOING
TOO
MAY SEEM
SO WEIRD AND
DISTANCE
AND TWISTED
BUT ITS NOT
ITS THAT HUMAN
FEELING THING
THAT MY
SPOCK WAYS
HAVE SUCH A
HARD TIME WITH
EMOTIONS
AND WORDS
AND EVERYTHING
FRUSTRATES
SOMETIMES
LIKE LOOKING IN
THE FISH EYE LENS
OF THE CAMERA
FROM THE MIRROR
POINT OF VIEW
ETERNALLY
THERE
YET NOT THERE
ITS JUST
ME NOW
HERE
AND SOME DAYS
THAT IS SO
HARD TO SWALLOW
AND
MOVING ABOUT
JUST TAKES
HOURS TO
GAIN THE ENERGY
EFFORT TO
DO SO
SOME DAYS
I CAN MOVE
BY LEAPS AND
BOUNDS
AND ALL IS FINE
OTHERS
JUST
RESTS HERE
IN THE LIMBO
THING
KNOW I AM OK
DON’T KNOW
HOW NOT TO BE OK
YET ITS
SO LIKE
FORGIVE ME
MY MIND AND HOW
MY HEART WENT
THERE
IT SO WENT THERE
KNOW THAT
NOW PASS ALL
THE
MESS THAT
OCCURRED ON
BOTH SIDES OF THIS
THAT
I DON’T HOLD
YOU TO ANYTHING
JUST THOUGHT
FRIENDSHIP
COULD BE GAINED
AFTER IT ALL
KNOW I WILL
ALWAYS
LOVE YOU
THAT IS A FACT
CANT NOT LOVE YOU
IT IS WHAT
IT IS
GUESS A PART OF
ME WILL SIT
HERE AND
FOREVER
WISH I HAD JUST
ONE MOMENT
IN TIME
TO BE
REALLY THERE
TO KNOW
MORE OF
HOW YOU FELT
IN ALL OF THIS
FORGO
MY SELFISHNESS
WHICH REALLY
ISN’T ME
I AM SO NOT SELFISH
IN REALITY
WHAT POSSESSED
ME IN THAT OBSESSION
I DON’T RIGHTLY
GET IT
MAYBE ITS JUST
MY LACK OF
UNDERSTANDING
EMOTIONS
THERE IS A PRECIOUS
PATCH WORKED
INTO THE REST
OF MY HEART
WHERE YOU
REMAIN
AND IT COVERS
MOST OF IT
JUST SAYING
THANK YOU
WOULD NEVER
EVER BE
ENOUGH
COULD YOU
EVER COME
AND JUST
CHILL WITH
ME AWHILE
TO THIS THOUGHT
THAT I STILL
HAVE
DON’T BE
AFRAID
OF ME
I CAN ASSURE YOU
I WOULD BE
ON MY BEST
BEHAVIOR
AND NOT CROSS
THE LINES
I SO DID IN
THE BEGINNING
OH MAN DID
I GO LOCO
GUESS IT WAS THE
LACK OF NOT
HAVING ANYONE
FOR SO LONG
THAT SPARKED
MY HEART TO
JUST SOAR
AND SOAR
AND SOAR
TIL I LOST OUT
GOING WHOA
WHAT DID I DO
WHY DID I GO THERE
HOW DARE I
SO HOW WRONG
BUT
OH SO RIGHT
FORGIVE
AN BE FORGIVEN
EVEN IF
MY HEART IS
NEVER YOURS
IT SO IS MINE
IN THE SENSE
OF I AM YOURS
CAN’T CHANGE
THAT PART
EVEN IF I TRIED
BUT I KEEP
TO ME NOW
CAUSE GUESS
THAT IS
ALL I GOT
BUT KNOW
I LOVE YOU
ALL THE SAME
SO LOVE YOU
MY DEAR
IN THAT SPACE
WHERE WE
BOTH CAN
BE
EVEN IF WE
NEVER GET TO BE
THAT SPOT
ON THE WALL
IN MY MIND
REMAINS
TO OUR TRUTHS
I JUST CAN’T
BE IN THAT
ALONE
JUST CAN’T
BE
OH THAT DAMN
BLOODY CAR
THOUGHT
HAHA
YEP I SO WENT
THERE
AND LIKED IT
WOW WHAT
I DID DAMN
IN MY MIND
IF ONLY IN MY MIND
CROSSED SO
MANY BOUNDARIES
THAT I
SHOULD NEVER
HAVE JUST
BURSTED IN
SO HARSHLY
SO OVERWHELMED
IN THAT CONSUMED
THOUGHT
TO TELL IT ALL
SPILL IT ALL OUT
LOST SO LONG
AND LIKE
WHOA
WE WERE JUST
FRIENDS
WHAT THE HECK
CAME OVER ME
I WON’T REGRET IT
I CAN’T REGRET IT
JUST NOW
ITS LIKE
UM WHAT I DO NOW
CAUSE NOTHING
FREAKING COMPARES
AND I CANT
SEEM TO JUST
SETTLE
ANYMORE
UGH
UHOH
WHAT DID I
FREAKING DO
TO MY HEART
AND I SO DID
IT TO MY HEART
ON THESE
LONELY PAGES
OF WHERE EVER
TO THE POINT
OF JUST
DAMN
ALL I CAN SAY
IS DAMN
ONLY FOR YOU
SO ONLY FOR YOU
WISH YOU
COULD JUST
CARRY ME AWAY
FROM THIS
I AM IN NOW
AS I LEARN
TO FACE THIS
SOMEHOW
TO THE PATCHWORK
HEARTS
ALWAYS YOURS
GUESS I COULD
SAY I AM SORRY
FOREVER
WOULDNT
CHANGE WHERE
MY HEART IS
NOW
SO KEEP INSPIRING ME
TO KEEP MOVING
TO KEEP STRIVING
TO KEEP GOING
TO KEEP BEING
ME
CAUSE IF NOTHING ELSE
THAT I SO NEED
NOW MORE THAN EVER
MY ETERNAL
FRIEND
IF WE COULD BE
KNOW I WOULD BE
INSTANTLY
ALWAYS IN MY
HEART
MY FRIEND
ALWAYS
KNOW I KEEP
GOING
CAUSE I SEE
YOU KEEP GOING
ITS SO
INTERLOCKED
THAT WAY
SO MINE
SO YOURS
SO OUR THING ONLY
