AMBER
Amber
©Susanne Jensen Mar 02, 2013
in the moment
of the air that
flows in the smoke
through the surfaces
of this heart's
shattered dreams
and broken scars
there is someone
that never gives in
and always travels
on and on and on
through her lost
sea of the
deep grey eyes
and dark blonde hair
that is now lost its
luster and is thinner
than it was ever
meant to be
still surviving through
it all and one day
will shine again
just in a different way
always a fighter
till the bitter end
of these days
that are to come
I will overcome it
and be stronger
as always
wishing I wasn't
so far away
wishing I am always
wishing that
the twists and twirls
into circles of the
brightest stars
up there are always
striking at the
burn of this flame
and its where I
have dreamed to be
ever since I was
a very young one
I knew then I would
do something
that would create
with my hands
and my mind
all the beauty that I
see and then
I have done all of that
I never ended up
on the circuit to the
up but I am here
and still trying to make
it work somehow
and dim so dim
as the spinning dime
twirls around like the
world spins on its axis
this is always gonna
be when you walk
away you aren't
leaving you are
meeting reality in the face
I will never do that
I can't no matter
what is thrown at me
I can't give up
its so deep in me
I don't know how
to be any other way
than I am
and I shared all I could
and laid it out on the line
and did walk the walk
and tried to do it
on my own I have
kept my head above the
water and that says
alot for the inner strength
that is carried with a warrior
and its the way
this one roles
moving the wheels
to and fro
in and race
to nowhere
yet in my dreams
I am always soaring
high for the love
that still rests in me
will be given to
someone someday
and that is the only
thing I can do now
is keep on going
and keep on
making it through it
all and its
just one of those
things love and devotion
so much is there
and I see it
and feel it
and breathe it
for how else
and what else
can I do
let the candles
burn burn burn
all the way down
till the bitter end
gave it my best shot
and I still love you
know I still love you
running love
running love
up into the clouds
where no one else
will ever take this
in my dreams
in my heart
in my soul
in my personal space
in this in that
and its how I am
and how I always will be
and express it I will
and gave it to you
I will always gave it to you
my beloved
so my beloved
all my stories
and all my poems
and all my art
and all of me
all of me
this sweet amber
has built as shell
around my heart
for so many years now
that there is no
way its gonna crack
its got my heart
buried deep inside
its liquid gold
its pure liquid gold
and that is the treasure
no one can take away
and will always
be what we shared
then and now
so know I won't walk away
I don't want to go
tears still fall
in the rain
just alter the moving
view down that
brick road that turning
and waving its
dripping down
and dripping down
the wax pours in
the dish below
melted all away
melted all away
and it is flying far
far far away
so far away
my heart has no clue
stuck here in limbo
what to do
and its in the
pulse and the rhythm
beating the drums
and pounding the guitar
in the stage your
world you have
all the glory love
all I can do is watch
and turn the door knob
and open one door
as another is closing
and never look back
my imagination is fuelled
by a strong heart
healing myself
it existed strong
and it needed to be
and it was always there
and it was always there
is it gone in you
i cant cry forever
where i wish to be
you wont let me be
im here cus i have no
other means to
work my way out
doesnt mean i lied
it means i want happiness
to find us
and what is
in us both
in us both
just paths that crossed
am i forever damned
to be star crossed
once again
for a little while
I was falling in love
deeply in love
again so deep and deep
and now I have
to find that peace inside
that you so took
and took and took
whomever it has been
and I gave and gave
and gave and whats left to give
in falsehoods
where your lies are there
pushing and proding
to have things your way
and keep my life in hell
no more
will I give so freely
or trust as i have
always give
its nothing else
its nothing else
yours forever
and only yours
yet its only my dreams
my heart
my soul
always the star
following her chariot moon
in the dreams
in the stairway to
another gateway
in the lifetime
karma that rules
the stars and the
universe screams out
for what will never be
for what will never be
but so wanted
and so stuck here
no control over fate
thats dealt my desired love
a awful blow
and what will always be
and what will always be
what will always be
inside
deep in the temptation
of what will never ever
falter from what was then
a cry in the pouring rain
where ones heart broke
and walked away
and ten times more
This go around
i just want to be loved by you
when the door was shut
and the other screamed
again to find and never did
and the other walked
and walked and walked
and walked and walked
through the gates of hell
and up into heaven
where she sits still in
peace and grace
in peace and grace
she looks down and smiles
back at us
back at us
will you come aide this
broken heart
to mend in your love
and we go on
on and on
and thats where we sit
for i love one only
forever friends
where i wish to be
and have open arms yet nothing
ever comes
for one
I put all I have of me
into loving one
I am not lying ...
fades away it all fades away
and i sit here
always alone
with a heart of amber
for you my dear
always you................................
